It has been long since i have posted anything .... though this period has not been devoid of thought and analysis the initial facination with my own blog and the purpose for which it was created has ebbed .......
Perhaps the fact that i work from 9 to 6 for my project is hindering the creativity that i wished to reignite in my somewhat boring life.
Of late i have been worrying about my technical skills ..... I am going to be an engineer soon I am going to be in a technical engineering job soon ... but where is it that i am heading. Clear visions of the future elude me .... maybe i am not trying hard enough to visualize the future.... but i most certanly do know that right now i am clueless again .....
I have topped the 7th semester exams ... but somehow i am not really elated or euphoric ..... a sense of dread has come over me ...... once again I have achieved something that was at the pinnacle of my wish list and that place is blank again.
I overwrked the critical thinking and analytical thinking components of my brain last week leading to a mini burnout ... surprisingly the recovery from the burnout has been rather quick .... within the week I have come out of it and my mind is sort of clearing .... Soon i will have another goal .... another plateau, enroute my ardrous climb to an elusive summit, to reach. I hope all my recoveries are like this in the future ....... and i never NEVER become complacent again .......
Saturday, April 02, 2005
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
Great Teachers
There are some peaople whom you regret not having known during their lifetime and a few days ago i read about one such person whom i wish i had known when he was alive.
Dr. HN educationist Gandhian idealist and most of all to my perception a simple humourist. Being a man of great importance there were a large number of tributes and obituaries about him in the papers. The common thread among all the articles was the undiluted admiration everyone had for his simplicity (he lived in a single small room) and good humoured. From these writings I gathere that here was a person who was really prepared for his death. He joked constantly about it and had completed all formalities that would have been required in case of the occurace of the event.
What do I have to learn from HN I have to learn the importance of rising up the ranks and yet retaining the simplicity that helps in maintaining the greatness that comes with the rise.
REading about his life i have realized why i respect teachers who are true educationists. I have come across many teachers who are technically brilliant but have no inkling of the meaning of the word education. I dont expect a long pedantic moral lecture from a teacher of Data Communications but i do expect the teacher to impart knowledge in a manner that is to the best of her ability. I dont expect a teacher to spoon feed my knowledge but at the same time his efforts to make me see the solution in arcane jargons makes me wonder about this mans dedication to the task.
Teaching is a great responsibility. It is no joke. My thought on teaching part time have now been completely extinguished. A teacher cant do his subject and students justice unless he himself is convinced of what he is teaching and he has the conviction of thought that he can impart his knoledge effectively to others. i have not yet reached a level of knowkedge where I can say that I am capable of being a teacher. I need to remember that teaching is sacred and that is why good educationists are always revered.
Dr. HN educationist Gandhian idealist and most of all to my perception a simple humourist. Being a man of great importance there were a large number of tributes and obituaries about him in the papers. The common thread among all the articles was the undiluted admiration everyone had for his simplicity (he lived in a single small room) and good humoured. From these writings I gathere that here was a person who was really prepared for his death. He joked constantly about it and had completed all formalities that would have been required in case of the occurace of the event.
What do I have to learn from HN I have to learn the importance of rising up the ranks and yet retaining the simplicity that helps in maintaining the greatness that comes with the rise.
REading about his life i have realized why i respect teachers who are true educationists. I have come across many teachers who are technically brilliant but have no inkling of the meaning of the word education. I dont expect a long pedantic moral lecture from a teacher of Data Communications but i do expect the teacher to impart knowledge in a manner that is to the best of her ability. I dont expect a teacher to spoon feed my knowledge but at the same time his efforts to make me see the solution in arcane jargons makes me wonder about this mans dedication to the task.
Teaching is a great responsibility. It is no joke. My thought on teaching part time have now been completely extinguished. A teacher cant do his subject and students justice unless he himself is convinced of what he is teaching and he has the conviction of thought that he can impart his knoledge effectively to others. i have not yet reached a level of knowkedge where I can say that I am capable of being a teacher. I need to remember that teaching is sacred and that is why good educationists are always revered.
Sunday, February 20, 2005
after .. a long time
Exams are done ....... Internship in place ( I am working at PMS! .... Philips Medical Systems) ....
Lotsa thoughts had to be put up here .... but i did not get a chance .... Finally I have a dedicated highspeed internet connection .... therefore hopefully i will update this place more often ....
here is one of my thoughtful typings just after the 7th sem exams
There are few sermons that i have listened to in its entirety during Sunday mass and fewer that impress me or make me see the fundamental truths of life and faith. Of late my quest has been to find the true meaning of faith. What is faith ? It is definately not something that is relative only to god. Faith seems to have a more deeper meaning to everybody in daily life. I implicitly have faith that I am going to get up every morning and brush my teeth. I have explicit faith that the decisios my parents have taken on my behalf have been for my own good. I implicitly have faith in GOD and God's plan for me (yeah it still has not changed to the agnostic). I have explicit faith in my close friends being there for me in my tough times. I have faith in the infinite goodness of man ..... and so on and so forth ... too many thoughts have rushed through my mind in terms of my faith.
So is faith a fundamental state of being. It is definately not innate. Faith is something that is acquired either by perception practice or by indoctrination. Faith is a persons measure of truth relative to his own perceptions.
MY FAITH DEFINES MY TRUTH.
Lotsa thoughts had to be put up here .... but i did not get a chance .... Finally I have a dedicated highspeed internet connection .... therefore hopefully i will update this place more often ....
here is one of my thoughtful typings just after the 7th sem exams
There are few sermons that i have listened to in its entirety during Sunday mass and fewer that impress me or make me see the fundamental truths of life and faith. Of late my quest has been to find the true meaning of faith. What is faith ? It is definately not something that is relative only to god. Faith seems to have a more deeper meaning to everybody in daily life. I implicitly have faith that I am going to get up every morning and brush my teeth. I have explicit faith that the decisios my parents have taken on my behalf have been for my own good. I implicitly have faith in GOD and God's plan for me (yeah it still has not changed to the agnostic). I have explicit faith in my close friends being there for me in my tough times. I have faith in the infinite goodness of man ..... and so on and so forth ... too many thoughts have rushed through my mind in terms of my faith.
So is faith a fundamental state of being. It is definately not innate. Faith is something that is acquired either by perception practice or by indoctrination. Faith is a persons measure of truth relative to his own perceptions.
MY FAITH DEFINES MY TRUTH.
Monday, January 10, 2005
Nothing corrupts like power.....
With great power comes great responsibility ... its a blessing its a curse ....
Two very cliched statements and yet two of the most relevent statements in today's world vis a vis leadership.
I was just thinking about what is leadership and these were the first two thoughts that came to my mind.
In the early days (pre engineering) leadership to me was all about power. The power to hold sway on the proceedings and to be incharge. To impose my views on the formulation of any action in an absolute manner without any discussion. Now my views on leadership are much more muddled than before. Is leadership only about power or are there greater depths that i have not as yet explored. I see lots of leaders around me and the only thing that seems to satisfy them is the power that they hold by virtue of leadership and that is what made me think.....
One important conclusion that i have drawn is leadership has to be taken with a tacit understanding that i am willing to take on the responsibility that comes with it and not just cling on to the power that is part and parcel of it. If i am a leader then i am responsible for the use of my power for the common good and not for just my egotic self appeasement. I guess i am just stating the obvious once again ...but i need to remind myself continuously that i should believe in the fundamental tenets of good leadership that i have inferred from past experiences and this is one of them.
Thoughts on leadership raise lots of issues and questions that could be the topic of many blog entries .... but before anything else i have found an old piece of paper that has as its contents two of the most influential sermons i have heard in my life..... sometime next week i am going to put them down here with my own perspectives on them.
Sleep and a feeling of guilt that precious study ;) time is wasted on this exercise are the only constraints on my flow of thought ................
With great power comes great responsibility ... its a blessing its a curse ....
Two very cliched statements and yet two of the most relevent statements in today's world vis a vis leadership.
I was just thinking about what is leadership and these were the first two thoughts that came to my mind.
In the early days (pre engineering) leadership to me was all about power. The power to hold sway on the proceedings and to be incharge. To impose my views on the formulation of any action in an absolute manner without any discussion. Now my views on leadership are much more muddled than before. Is leadership only about power or are there greater depths that i have not as yet explored. I see lots of leaders around me and the only thing that seems to satisfy them is the power that they hold by virtue of leadership and that is what made me think.....
One important conclusion that i have drawn is leadership has to be taken with a tacit understanding that i am willing to take on the responsibility that comes with it and not just cling on to the power that is part and parcel of it. If i am a leader then i am responsible for the use of my power for the common good and not for just my egotic self appeasement. I guess i am just stating the obvious once again ...but i need to remind myself continuously that i should believe in the fundamental tenets of good leadership that i have inferred from past experiences and this is one of them.
Thoughts on leadership raise lots of issues and questions that could be the topic of many blog entries .... but before anything else i have found an old piece of paper that has as its contents two of the most influential sermons i have heard in my life..... sometime next week i am going to put them down here with my own perspectives on them.
Sleep and a feeling of guilt that precious study ;) time is wasted on this exercise are the only constraints on my flow of thought ................
Friday, January 07, 2005
it works
My previous post was reactionary.....
I reacted to something i felt very strongly about .....
and it yielded results ..... Anish M John 's Letter was published on Jan 5 2005
my reply was published in deccanherald on Jan 6th 2005....
This publish has made me realize that one does not have to compromise on something that he feels very strongly about. If you are partially right and your voice could make a difference and you dont raise it ... u are committing a crime. Being reactive in life is as important i am realizing as being proactive .... but then a true commentry on proactivity and reactivity would require a peaceful night to ponder upon.
Sleep and studies beckon me.
I reacted to something i felt very strongly about .....
and it yielded results ..... Anish M John 's Letter was published on Jan 5 2005
my reply was published in deccanherald on Jan 6th 2005....
This publish has made me realize that one does not have to compromise on something that he feels very strongly about. If you are partially right and your voice could make a difference and you dont raise it ... u are committing a crime. Being reactive in life is as important i am realizing as being proactive .... but then a true commentry on proactivity and reactivity would require a peaceful night to ponder upon.
Sleep and studies beckon me.
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